"For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother's womb. I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; marvelous are Your works, and that my soul knows very well. My frame was not hidden from You, when I was made in secret, and skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed. And in Your book they all were written, the days fashioned for me, when as yet there were none of them."
I was just reading this passage from Psalm 139 and I noticed a footnote that I had never seen before. In verse 13, the word "covered" could also be "wove". God wove me in my mother's womb and he is weaving the baby that I am carrying now. That's not exactly a new concept to me, although I really like the word "wove"...it paints a neat picture that I had not thought of before.
I've been thinking a lot lately about what it would be like to have a child with a disability. I'm sure it's incredibly hard dealing with all of the medical issues that come with Down's Syndrome or something like that. Not to mention the extra care that a disabled child needs and the time that would need to be devoted to him...and consequently the time that would possibly not be able to be devoted to other family members.
I'm not praying that our new baby will be disabled, but if he is (we'll just call it "he" for now, although of course we don't know yet), I can honestly say that I am perfectly okay with that. I am praying for God's will, whether that's a perfectly healthy baby or a severely disabled baby. Right now God is forming his "inward parts" and "weaving" him in my womb. He is being "skillfully wrought" in "secret" and he is "not hid from God". God knows everything about him and has already "fashioned" his days. My sincere prayer is that he will grow up to "praise Him" for he is "fearfully and wonderfully made". This passage in Psalms does not say anything about God making mistakes on us in our mothers' wombs. Disabled babies are not accidents. They are just as fearfully and wonderfully made and just as skillfully wrought as healthy babies. And most importantly, they are made in the image of their Creator.